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Weird
July 21, 2011July 21, 2011, 4:01 am
Na-disorient na naman ako. Bakit na naman ba? Ano ba problema at kailangan pa ulit na maramdaman ka sa panaginip? Nawiwirduhan na ko.
First, parang high school days scene. we’re classmates pero di nagpapansinan, particularly ako. I was worried with the lessons kase i cant seem to understand. di ako matahimk so I went to a friend and borrowed some notes, which coincidentally have been lent to you. I saw na nasa may bandang likod ka lang pala ng seat ko. i dare not look at you in the entire scenario. but i know i was aware of your presence in the room.
Second, aftermath na. i went to your place with an alibi na i was visiting the family. there was a scene, family problem, nagiiyakan na sila. i dont know what to do. im thinking kung makikialam ako even if i know for a fact that im totally out of the picture. i didnt expect na darating ka; i even wished na wag kang makita, but then dumating ka. amid all the drama, nagtanong ka lang kung bakit ako nandon. so casual. with all that’s going on, parang wala lang nangyari, same old biruan and light lang ang atmosphere. niyaya mo kong umalis. para makaiwas sa gulo. like before. may naiwan ako and you tried to dissuade me from going back but i insisted and even threatened na lalayasan ka. you gave in, you waited. we went to a place, sa quiet room nga yata pero may mga high schoolers or something who are on a fieldtrip yata. then, here comes a female acquaintance of yours na binati ka with the side comment na parang andyan na naman yan. not the exact words pero parang ganon. ive heard of the lines before, weird. i knew instantly na pinatatamaan ako. you excused yourselves and kung ano ano naisip ko na pinaguusapan nyo. then i decided na umalis without saying goodbye. i just left the set of jewelries/accessories na ibinigay sa ken. pagbalik, actually andun pa ko but behind a wall. i would want to see the reaction (i was ready, i guess) but then…
dapat nang putulin ang pananaginip. nag-ring ang alarm ng phone ko. hahaha.
ang mas weird pala is this guy friend of mine na laging nasa ending ng stories. the first was sya yung katabi ko sa seat during the class, assisting me of the lessons and assuring me that everything will be alright.
and then on the second, parang i was a damsel in distress and he seems to be the one to save me. after the embarassment, i checked daw my fb account and there i saw about 10 or 20 wall posts from this guy friend about his feelings for me raw. eeewww. cant understand bakit sya nadadamay when in reality naman bihira kame magcommunicate. he used to be a very closed friend but then we lost the bond so why now?
feels weird lang. and actually, it is weird.
